Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Doormat

Today
Her gait is different
Devoid of gaiety
She walks ahead slowly
Gazing down with gravity
At the floor patterns below

Was it wrong
To stoop so low
In the ambition to attain
That exalted stage?
Oh that is the way
They treated her behold
Like a doormat
Of a bygone age

Where do you draw the line, she asks
Between ego and self esteem
For she has reached the nadir
Of the latter
And now looks up to see

The dust of their hubris
Covering her face
Her soul left behind
In that maddening race...


Thursday, February 2, 2012

...melting moments

The shyness of my being
It so happened
That I tried to discover them through mere glances

Glances that met
Some were answered
Others were overlooked

As if I was a transparent figure
And the figure behind would pre-empt
The space I would so covet

And now some of those lovely
Gazes have mellowed
Into avuncular, cheering smiles

When I would greet them in silence
I would be greeted back
By sparkling eyes
And melting facelines

And my faith in life
and persistent smiles
Would grow strong and stronger

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Justice


I have been thinking of writing about JUSTICE as I see the concept influencing my life and those of people around.

I define justice as ‘rightful quid pro quo’ – I get back what I deserve. If I contributed 50% to a project, a test or in organizing an event, I should get back AT LEAST 50% of the credit.

Credit, I understand can be a subjective term subject to individual egos and expectations of rewards. But I guess it would not be wrong to say that assessment of an individual’s worth, if transparent can turn out to be more acceptable and less debatable.

I had high opinion of the World Lung Foundation and its DU arm DUSFI (Delhi University Smoke Free Initiative), may be because of the creative names and the impact it would leave on a first time listener, until yesterday. At the essay competition organized under the initiative, a series of events and organizational mismanagement left me with a bad taste about WLF.

Surprisingly the judgment criteria at the Essay Contest reminded me of those old school head masters, one often reads of, who exist in backward schools in remote areas. Consider the marking scheme at the contest which was supposed to be an ‘essay writing contest’ – 30 for written essay, 30 for summary presentation of the essay and 40 for an interview with the candidate. Impressive!

Now consider how the latter category induced such level of subjectivity into the judgment criteria to the extent that the ingenuity of the essay received no credits at all.

Although the essay dealt with ‘the social, economic and environmental implications of tobacco consumption’, the interview related to none of the aspects. Neither did it try to assess the degree of sensitivity of the candidate to the issue. The kind of questions asked at the interview were the following:

1.       Name some of the chemicals that tobacco is composed of.
2.       What is the Green Tobacco Sickness caused by tobacco? How can we prevent it?
3.       Give me the date on which this act on tobacco was passed.
4.       Why is eucalyptus planted along with tobacco crop in farms?

It is precisely these kinds of questions which reminded me of those boring school EVS textbooks which we were encouraged to learn by heart to vomit out in the exams at school. The very difference between knowledge and education is that the latter is composed of stuff that cannot be googled. Education of a person is a cumulative sum of years of experience amidst knowledge.

I fail to understand how the real worth of a person would be gauged by mere factual interrogation which even a parrot could recite without hitch. Not to mention, the experience brought old school memories back.
                                                                 
I expected the initiative to be an eye-opener for students, something that would elicit our opinions on tobacco control and assess us on our ingenuity to think BEYOND the obvious! That is what most college level initiatives are supposed to be.

Alas! The school-headmasterly clichéd mindsets were hard to change, I realized – in fact, when I communicated the above views to the Director present there, he told me, “Everyone has copied the essay from the internet, so this interview is actually gauging how much you have actually retained” – he enunciated as if he was on the lookout of worthy parrots who could recite dates, figures and facts.

Strangely, at my interview I was told in candid words – ‘Miss Kaur, let me congratulate you at the outset because you are the only candidate who has written the entire essay by herself – rest all, as we have read, are fascimiles’

I felt as if I had bumped into a wrong place, being congratulated for the mere fact that I had composed an essay of my own and not through a ‘Ctrl C - Ctrl V’ act!

As it turned out in the end, the interview had greater weightage in the sum total i.e. factual rote learning was given credit over ingenuity and people who had shamelessly copied stuff and signed their names off it, were crowned as the 'best'.

What I argue here, is that the parameters taken into account compromised justice. Different people can give differential weights to different parameters - but the same if revealed beforehand in a transparent manner, can confer greater likelihood on the fairness of decisions.

I participated in my first British Parliamentary style of debate in my class 12 at school. The thing I liked the most here was the way in which adjudication was done. After the candidates were done, the judges would come to the podium and justify - 'you get x credits since you mentioned a, b, c, and d arguments which no other contestant could refute'. And usually the credits would be proportional to the number of arguments so that the question of subjectivity would not crop in. Each argument thus was given a default weightage of 1. An additional defense of the argument could attract another brownie point.

From a variety of experiences, I guess it would not be wrong to conclude that injustice happens behind closed doors, windows and curtains. It is corrupt practices specifically which undermine the fairness of decisions taken - be it in the bureaucracy too. The reason why people protest against corruption is that it compromises proportionate rewards to an individual for his effort and levies undue penalties on those who do not even deserve them - say waiting in line for days to get a simple work done in a public office.

And that is why RTI is so dear to us. It makes things transparent, makes the stakeholders conscious of public gaze and ensures speedy and effective justice. :)


Election fever

This short visit to Punjab was a novel experience. Had a chance to see some live campaigning by candidates from parties of all shades.

Attending a GD at the head office of Sukriet, a local NGO – I had a chance to engage into conversation with a PPP candidate from my constituency. I had a high view of the People’s Part of Punjab – not because it was headed by a Stephanian but because of the fiscal consolidation policies that I supported. I have been critical of excessive populist subsidies to large farmers back home – I call them populist because the subsidies do not serve a definitive purpose, I still get to see huge disturbing statistics of farmer suicides in a quick scan of the Ludhiana Tribune. Subsidies like humans should be mortal and should have a limited life span during the course of which a community can be supported and brought to a requisite starting line.

And so this short one-to-one meeting with the PPP candidate turned out to be flip-flop as the candidate ducked questions, knew little about the economy of Punjab as  a whole, and turned out to be someone who had joined the party just because no body else would give him a ticket because of nepotism within other long established parties.

The lesson on dispersion

      This teachers' day, I fondly remember a teaching tale from my time as an economics teacher at Akal Academy, Baru Sahib in 2017.   ...